Wednesday, September 02, 2009
On The Flipside

On the other hand, I do need to give myself credit for doing *some* good things every now and then. My friend Bre once said that for every negative thing I say about myself, I should say three positive things. I can't possibly think of one, nevermind three, good habits for every bad one that I indulge in, but I should at least recognize that I'm not all bad all the time.

Since I've been home I've actually been engaging in regular physical activity - I walk the half hour home from the bus stop every day as opposed to calling for a ride like I used to. I go for a run three times a week, have been eating more fresh vegetables and am trying to watch my portions. I also stopped being consistently late for work, which is a good thing since I'm up for a review at the end of the month...

Don't get me wrong, I am definitely one to maintain a healthy indulgence in bad habits. I'm still not getting enough sleep, I often eat while standing up at the counter, sometimes I don't brush before bed, and I don't nearly vacuum enough. I can also be a terrible spender - my latest credit card bill, for example, is over $1500. The last time I spent so much was when I bought my MacBook and I ended up having to get a third job to make ends meet for a while. But this time it's because it includes my spending while I was overseas and my !!-->***next flight to Paris***<--!! is on it as well...

And speaking of good and bad habits, it appears that I have broken my pattern of meeting emotionally unavailable boys (good!). Now I'm just meeting ones that are *physically* unavailable because he lives over the ocean (bad!). But, despite the whereabouts of a particularly large pond (his words!), it seems that we're both crazy enough to try. (Crazy, but good!)

The next month (EXACTLY one month to go!) will be filled with all the good things I can muster up the energy to do because I need to EARN those fresh baguettes spread with nutella, all those nights filled with the delicious red wine that I miss dearly, all the days I'll spend not walking and running but indulging in other forms of physical activity I'm sure... All 'bad' things in one sense, but my goodness are they ever going to feel good.